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September 2006

Hi, Carolyn here:

I would like to speak this month on the phenomenon of

The Game of Love & 51%.

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It continues to surprise me. It has been some time now since I have been 'actively' playing The Game; one moment I am in the throes of difficulty working upon a particular issue and it would seem the next moment, it (the issue) has gone. It 'is' that simple.

It is not a case of wrestling with it or facing it and nervously moving through it or pretending that it is no longer there or hiding from it or any of the other means of coping.

Once my 51% of work upon the issue is reached The C.C. 'flick the switch'.

The issue then remains a knowledge within the brain however the heartache, the remorse, the pain and misery that it once caused is no longer present.  It is like child birth; the memory of the pain remains however the pain itself is gone..........it can no longer harm; it can no longer be in control; it can no longer cause the response which once was so debilitating.

Over the past few weeks, whilst in consultation with some clients, I have found it necessary to remind them that when a new situation is encountered  (after the 'switch has been flicked' on a particular issue)  the old pattern of behaviour will automatically present itself and will need to be dealt with. 

An example of this:  A client started a new job and found herself responding to situations in the old self effacing, lack of worth type way. Once I reminded her that this was no longer how she wanted to present herself and indeed was not how she now thought about herself (due to her major 'lack of self worth' issue being resolved) she remembered that she hadn't reaffirmed her desire to be without the offending behaviour. In fact she realised that the behaviour was automatic and in the heat of the moment forgot that she did not need to behave in this fashion any longer. Once she became aware of this she was able to see clearly that it was just the 'habit of old' and had no place in her new worth. She also felt immediately comforted and knew that she would no longer behave in this debilitating way again.

The C.C. have advised me that when we have done our 51% in this regard they will flick the switch and although we will need to remain vigilant at all times for any offending behaviour, the possibilities of this occurring reduce considerably. We are at all times responsible for maintaining our new found freedom by being watchful of our behaviour.

However I hasten to add that this is little price to pay for the ability to be without the confines of our old way of thinking and being.

October 2006

Forgiveness Replaced with 'Understanding'

Forgiveness, as such, is replaced with 'understanding' once we truly accept our spiritual conception.

Once we truly have an understanding and acceptance of our true spiritual conception forgiveness, as such, becomes a thing of the past. It is replaced by a new understanding which incorporates the knowing that we, as humans, are geared to create trouble. We all have a script to follow and, as such, are doing as our script intends for us to do. There is, however, a need to resolve all of the unresolved energies/emotions/traumas inherent within the so called bad experiences of life. Without resolving these issues we remain 'stuck' in the energies of the past and this, naturally, can only be harmful.

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We need to do whatever is needed to release the burden of these debilitating memories and the energies of harm which they have created within our bodies. Once we have made a commitment to 'The Game of Love & 51%' the general process is just being aware of the energies at play and this very awareness does its work. This may mean thinking about the issue and its tentacles in a nonchalant way (we do not instigate the thought process, it comes to us in a gentler way). However all releasements vary in their process so if you find that you need to vent over and over then this is true for you. There is only a problem if the venting continues without coming to a state of peace. This would mean that you are dwelling on the problem and not on releasing the energies/emotions concerned. Processing the correct way brings us to a state of objectivity and with it comes a new found sense of peace in regard to the issue/individual/situation. We do not 'forget' the nastiness, the pain, the hurtful way in which we treated others nor were treated by others however there comes a knowing that all is well. We almost automatically begin to behave in a more mature, skilled manner. This, naturally, takes time however it is a natural consequence of playing the game.

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November 2006

Constant Change.......

Much has changed over the past month.......

I continue to counsel those who come my way which is for me a joy and an honour; I love to see and be a part of the progress.......

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When we are doing as we are meant to do all things seem to go quite smoothly in as much as the human experience allows. The past month has shown me that I am certainly doing as is intended for me.

I am enjoying the journey tremendously now. It was very hard to come to terms, at first, with the brain of man and very hard to work through the various nuances of difficulty which were my personality flaws. However I am very pleased that I have continued to work away at the difficulties because the rewards are truly amasing. I am today so very very different. I enjoy life now whereas once I believed that it was something that had to be endured and eventually it would be over and for that I would be pleased. Now I am looking forward to constant challenges and opportunities to expand in whatever avenue life has in store......

December 2006

Perfection Comes Slowly.......

Life continues to expand for me both personally and within my business life...

My counselling work continues to bring forward those whose goal is to perfect themselves.... This thought has led me to an issue which came up recently in a conversation with a client.....

"Slowly......" I said. "Perfection comes slooooooooowwwwwllllllyyy."

I had said 'slowly' a number of times and The C.C. kept prompting me to say it again and again within the conversation.........

"Aaahh," she said. "Slowly, it has to be done slowly. I don't have to be perfect today. I can create perfection slooowwllyy......."

"Yes," I said. "We don't expect perfection now in fact I doubt that we shall find perfection within our life time. However I shall continue to try......."

This client had been criticising herself for not being perfect forgetting that the name of the game is striving toward perfection and not 'being' perfect......I reminded her that perfection does not criticise but is patient and allowing of the frailties of the human being. It, 'perfection' or the 'soul' is so fine, so without the brutal aspects of the brain. When we are expecting perfection of ourselves and not allowing ourselves the frailties of the brain it is surely the brain making this judgement of criticism and certainly not the soul.......

This understanding allowed her to be more 'real' and be the human striving toward perfection with all of its setbacks and doubts and frailties.......

January 2007

Control Has Been An Issue

Control has been a prominent issue this month

both for myself personally and within the inter-relations with those with whom I am involved.

I have been taught (by those who counsel me in spirit) to always do that which is 'right'. This has caused me to err in my thinking, at times. To do right, I am now appreciating, also means not allowing 'wrong' to prevail.

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During my life I have turned a blind eye to many 'wrongs'. This I have done for many reasons............not strong enough to make changes; not having sufficient self esteem; not feeling 'good enough'; fear that I may lose something which I have believed that I have needed, etc. I have been learning not to fear such things over the past while and have had a number of these experiences during this past month. I have had to let go of a number of things in order to obtain the end goal of that which is 'right'.

With this has come a sense of control of myself far greater than I have ever experienced.

February 2007

Calling All Light Workers

For many years I considered myself to be a 'light worker'. Indeed I was correct in part of this assumption.

Yes, I did want to assist people in ways of healing and spiritual guidance; however I did this at my own expense. In retrospect I now understand that my desire for world peace and all that that entails was certainly naive. I had no understanding of 'the brain' and the fact that we, as spirit, have designed it to be troublesome; to say the very least.

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This desire to assist my fellow man knew no bounds. I tried in vain to uplift all and sundry who came into my presence. This is certainly a quality rare and most definitely seen amongst the ranks of those like myself who have called themselves 'light workers'.

Now I value the fact that we all have a destiny to fulfill. For some it will be a destiny of hardship and sorrow and for others a playful and light experience. For most it is a constant hardship going through life bouncing from one drama to another. For many, such as myself, there is a constant trying to perfect oneself without the means and know-how. For them will come frustration and hopefully awareness such as I have now learned. No longer do I try to 'fix' everything and everyone and yet there has come into my life a stability and a playfulness that I have not known before. Now truly I am assisting a small number to become more and more balanced, as indeed I feel myself becoming. This is being achieved by seeing the reality of life here upon this planet as a soul experiencing the limitation of life as a human being with the apparatus 'brain'. 

March 2007

Life's Challenges Are Tough, Yet Wonderfully Rewarding.

It has come to my attention that although life's challenges are tough, the rewards are wonderful.

The C.C. have told me about a number of things which were/are to happen to me over my lifetime. Like everyone else I doubt the validity of some of the things that they say. And yet, as I see those I counsel living the benefits of playing 'The Game of Love & 51%' (and The C.C's predictions coming true for them) I come to the belief that perhaps what they say about me could very well be true too.

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This must sound strange to many that a clairvoyant doubts that which she is given by trusted friends in spirit and yet there it is. I do at times doubt what I am given in regard to myself. I still find it a little hard to believe that 'life' has such 'good things' in store for me even though some of those very things are happening and progressing as they ought in order to come to the best possible outcome (that which The C.C. have advised me will happen).  I hasten to say that this entails great effort on my behalf; I have to 'do the work'.

I, on the other hand, never doubt the validity of that which I am given for others; I am able to be more objective about that information.

Perfecting oneself is not an easy process. It takes courage and determination, grit and strength to change our ways; stand up for ourselves; put our best foot forward; live life as we want to live it doing the things that are 'right' for us. As has been said; this is not for the feint hearted. But for those who really want the best to prevail within their lives and are willing to face the challenges as they arise, the benefits are truly wonderful.

May 2007

Acceptance

I can now be so objective...... I can allow the brain of man (within others) to do as it has been engineered. I can allow it to play its little tricks; to enjoy its misery, its birthright of deceit and not be affected by it. I even now have no objection to the games that it plays. It is beneath contempt and this is ok.

I can do this now with an allowance that a mother has toward a wayward child. The mother bears no grievance; only understanding. And yet, just as a mother does with her child, I can administer the appropriate discipline as required. I can also 'act' accordingly. If a show of anger is the energy required than this is what I portray. If an indignant attitude is required to be administered than this is the energy that I project.

I do all of this from an appreciation that the brain of man is indeed a child. Indeed a child that can cause enormous harm if left to its own devices. Knowing this and protecting myself at the same time is becoming second nature.

I now know that there is nothing that can be done that will cause me harm for I have complete acceptance of the atrocities that the brain of man commits. In this there is such freedom.

July 2007

Going With The Flow

I once had to know everything............. I had to ask spirit for the answers to all of life's ups and downs. Now I can allow life to have its ups and downs and not be so needy of the answers.

This has allowed me to 'experience'. I was always so insecure and relied upon my clairvoyance to soothe me by 'knowing' the reasons why certain events were occurring. Now that I have a sense of self worth and with that also a certainty about dealing with life as it happens, I no longer am in need of all of the answers.

Going with the flow of life isn't always pleasant; there are a lot of 'brains' out there all wanting to have control, being subjective and the like. However now I don't care about so many things which once bothered me enormously. I once was so self conscious and worried about how others thought of me. I concerned myself with so many trivialities (as I see them today) and felt often humiliated or embarrassed or lacking in worth.

All of these things, and more, are of the past and I say good riddance to them. It is wonderful to be so free.

September 2007

Update Time.......

My life is becoming so 'normal'......... I am involved in many activities; enjoying new acquaintances; doing things that bring me pleasure; having deeper relationships with close ones; being a grandmother; being a social butterfly; getting very fit and strong (something The C.C. advised me to do); feeling comfortable in my skin; realising that life 'is' to be enjoyed and living it that way; being able to do as others do; not caring about trivial things; caring about living joyfully and to the full; having richer and deeper moments. In short, I would say that I am 'present'.

I now realise that I wasn't always 'present'. I realise that I was terribly 'self-conscious'. I know that life for me was 'hard'. I know that I gave too much of myself to everyone. I know that I sacrificed myself and limited myself. I know this because now I don't.

I am going through a period of time that The C.C. have advised me is for 'me'. This I am finding absolutely wonderful. I toil when the need to toil is the thing to do and I play when the need to play is the thing to do. I once toiled continuously. I didn't stop to 'smell the roses' as the saying goes. I thought I did, but I didn't. Now I do and I look forward to life/experiencing and the ups and the downs and the ins and the outs. It's really now all the same; it is just 'life' and I can do it now so effortlessly.

The C.C. inform me that this is to continue................................

November 2007

Flick the Switch.....

Yesterday I was with a client and she was given two 'flicks of switches'. By this I mean that The C.C. removed two very deeply ingrained mental beliefs that had been a part of her for all of her life. These beliefs had been manipulating her thoughts and actions so subtly that, until the switch was flicked, she didn't fully appreciate how debilitating they had been. Within five minutes beliefs that had been her foundation were no longer in control and she voiced her new understandings. It always surprises and captivates me how we, within minutes, begin to change our perception of long held opinions and begin to see through more balanced concepts. She was told that there would be many nuances to her new appreciations. She would think differently upon many and varied aspects of life and that this would make itself felt as she went through her normal day. I understand this because this has been happening to me often over the past few years.

For me life continues to expand; I am so busy I hardly know myself. I am active, fit and enjoying my life in a quiet, sometimes exhilarating way.

March 2008

Last Update

This will be my last update as I've no need to write again...........

It has been a wonderful experience; one which I shall treasure.......... The C.C. have been constant companions over the past few years and have given me much instruction. I have learned, not only through my own experiences, but through the experiences of those with whom I have been travelling.

I know that I am ready to take on whatever is in my life plan. I have been advised that life will bring me many rewards. I have missed out on many of the physical/material aspects of life; this was to be my life plan and has played out as was meant. However, now it is another chapter and within this one will be many material rewards. I look forward to working within the business world as I venture more and more into this environment. I will still be working with spirit in the capacity of 'earthly medium for The Game of Love & 51%' however this will be at a minimal flow of energy for another decade when it will then become (as The C.C. say) my one and only joy. I look forward to that time and yet I also look forward to the next decade. 

The web site will continue as it is. It will bear witness to 'The Game' and bring many into the new understanding...........